The Truth

Friends think that i can't talk to you,

Because i like you too much,

But i know the truth,

It's all because of me,

I don't want to hurt you,

I've seen my family broken,

Time and again,

Due to faulty relationships,

And i don't want to feel that pain,

You're the first gal,

That i ever shielded away,

Trying my hardest not to hurt you,

That would hurt me too,

Other gals,

They never had this affect,

I don't want you close to me,

Cause then you'd realize how broken i really am,

What if you don't like the real me?

I don't want you to meet the broken parts,

But that's all i have to give,

I'm sorry in advance,

If i'll ever hurt you,

But i need a friend,

And you're the last one left...

This was something I wrote before we got closer enough to share things. But my pretentions were fake... She grew fond of me as she came nearer... I hope that this pretentions even will be wrong.

I Will Continue To Love.. Even If You Say You are Not Mine

Never ask me why I was not the way I was again. Its you who gets hurt everytime. Hurting you hurts me back with more intensity. I am broke... I am not good but the Bad Guy whom you could ever had met. Its just lie that I love you, the truth is just that I CAN'T LOVE anyone in my whole life... I have also stopped Dreaming as the dreams are the worst part of my life that had hurted me... I have even stopped believing myself... I dunn believe myself as earlier used to believe. I am not meant to be for you... Its just that you are so sweet and good that you deserve the best in life... Not the one who is already sitting after putting his guards off... Today was the last day that you listened the word I Love You last time from me. I won't use this word ever in my life... Hope that cures everything, atleast not in my life but in yours... Can't see you hurted always. Moreover I cried enough yesterday, when you said straight from your heart ... I should stop expecting everything from you. Why should ME? Why...? I know why... Coz am the one who will never get anything that I will ever want in life. SORRY... Five letters composed a word.. Word big enough to prove all things small. Its Okay!! I can live without everyone in my life. I don't anyone with me... Now not even you... I am Sorry but thats truth.

I was going through some of the love stories. Found one good...
Posting it here just coz I liked it...

A boy asked a girl if she thought he was handsome,
She said... no.
He asked her if she would want to be with him forever...and she said no.

He then asked her if he were to leave would she cry, and once again she replied with a no.

He had heard enough. As he walked away, tears streaming down his face the girl grabbed his arm and said....

You are not handsome, You are beautiful.
I don't want to be with you forever, I NEED to be with you forever.

And I wouldn't cry if you walked away... I'd die...

******* Here I Go... With My New One

Its feelings from my heart
Which I need to write
Worded tokens I convey
But in love and light

Words written in sincerity
With continuous flow
Hoping to keep in touch
The only way I know

Each poem of love written
I send on over to you
As we are oceans apart
This is all I could do

As with every word I write
The feelings are true
Love flows continuously
In heartprints for you

It's those empty notes
My heart now sings
My loneliness is now
Upon broken wings

My dreams are left
Without light to guide them
Could this be the end of
My heart taking flight
Without you in my sight

Meaning I could no longer
Soar as my wings have
Fallen in your silence
And this silence is breaking
My heart in two

For my heart cannot fly
When love does not flow
And upon my broken wings
All while in the absence of
You my heartache grows...

When dawning hour approaches
as ocean rushes to shore
On dying breath I whisper
"I love thee" drifting into Heaven's door.

I Cant Be The Same.. Even Though How Much Hard I Try...!!!

I have tried my real hard to be as I was before but I failed...!! It will be really difficult for me to now love someone in my life... to really make someone part of my life... I am really S.O.R.R.Y.

Our relationship has never been perfect
But our love has always been true
Thats why no matter what
Obstacles life throws us
I will never give up on you

We have been through some difficult times
That now remain in the past
It's what happens from here on out that counts
But it will take both of us to make it last.

You have done some hurtful things to me
And I have done the same
And yet here we are hand in hand
Contemplating all the joys that we behold
In all our future days

Regardless of all the tears I have shed
And the pain we have both felt
It's you and only you that can make me smile
And its you that knows how
To erase a frown from my face
And these are the memories
I'll cherish even after I die.

You have truly changed my life
In ways you can only imagine
God brought you into my life at the perfect time
And you have made my life complete
And I hope I have completed yours too...

This compilation was written just 4 days back... Holds nothing but my broken dreams that are shattered to that many pieces that now it hurts to put them back in picture...

*Broken Hearts Would Have Mend By God... Only If He Knew Where Exactly Each Piece Fits In*

Good Bye...!!

Never thought that this day would come in my life... Today am writing my last post... My last as am lost... Am lost somewhere deep in my thoughts... though the things are coming up but now I want some break... Broken I am asking for break from worldly things... I loved you, thought I could anytime convey.. I could tell you how much you mean to me but its alright... Things have to be dis way... Guys in my last post I'll write nothing but the piece I wrote last night sitting besides her... just next to her seat. I was sitting there and seeing things changing way to fast. Nothing was in my hand or I could have hold it for last... I know I am BAD... I know... I don't deserve anyone in my life or atleast I don't deserve her as she is very good. She deserves someone really very good who can take care of her... I will try to convince myself and the next post you will see when I'll be convinced.. Here it goes what I wrote yesterday night, the night which seemed very short. The night which I wished would never last but it did at last... Here I go with this -

Didnt remember the last

time I had heartful laugh

Things manipulated

You never saw me squall

You went away from my life

Tearing apart me in pieces

I was like this when I met you

I hoped time will come when it ceases

Oh Lord! Jesus! Stop the time

Let me run back to catch what is left

Lost my life! somewhere back

Who will mend my heart's cleft!!

I know the blame was mine

I was totally engrossed with things

Couldn't see how fast it happened

Now seems someone chopped my wings

Wish everything goes back

Cant I get a chance to prove things right ?

Am I so bad, that it won't be done

I just wished mine & yours future bright...

It never occured to me

the things were such

as they were supposed to be

Nothing distorted much

But then there was one thing

that was not alright

I am a BAD guy

And people pertained me right!

Yes, I was BAAAD !!!

and still I am

the same guy

I bet and I swan!

I was bad because

For me you were precious

I didn't wanted to lost you

For I was treacherous

I was bad because

I loved you for who you are

But instead, you,

Always thought am a Mar!!

You snatched away from me

the most happiest thing in my life

Alone I stand in midway

Didn't knew alone I have to strife!

I always loved you with my heart

I always thought that we would last

Last all the things that will creep

In our life, with a blast!!

But the blast that had to happen

Had teared me apart

Broken as I stood !

Broken I stand!

Holding blood-poured-out-of my heart!!

I knew it never mattered

though you always cared

and it will even not matter

You always had friendship layered!

Tears come willing to cheeks

But somehow I manage

To hold them rolling to floor

Cuz they're hard enough for damage

Broken hearts doesnt easily mends

Never will the same happen

Though wishing you be mine

Is wishing drop in Deccan

Exaggerating my pain

Never occured to me

Its what I went through

Alone I stand as she left me

Your inhibitions were there

Your permissions were there

But you didn't cared enough

Was it even fair...

Am going back..

I don't have courage to stand

Stand back again everytime..

To fall back again..

You gave me what you could

No grudges are left...ahem...

Thank you for the loveliest days

I hope I'll pass my days with them...

Bye Friends.. AstaLavista !

I'll Love You And Will Always Do.. No Matter What You Do...!!!

Sometimes life is so untrue... It even does not tell you what is going to happen or not however still you always figure it out that what is your destiny... I know I wont ever get you in my life... I know you won't be mine anytime... Even if after 2 yrs I'll come to you not even then.. Not today Not tomorrow but I wish somehow some miracle happen... Why miracles never happen in my life? I have always heard that miracles do happen and if they really do - I just want one thing in my life and thats you... I'll get all others with my hardwork and your love I have faith...


I sat down to write
my feelings for you
As the words came out
I realized it was nothing new

You have heard all of this
Many times before
But let me tell you again
Hear me out once more

What I feel I need to tell you
Comes from deep within my heart
It carries a pain
That is tearing me apart

It's this hold that you have on me
This grip that's so tight
I can't break free
Try as I might

If ever a feeling
Was ever so strong
It's my love I feel for you
The one I have been holding so long

You can't give me the same
Same love back to me
Your life is not yours
You haven't broken free

Someday when I am gone
You will feel sad and blue
For the love you let go
And the person you once knew

Good luck with your life
And affairs of the heart
Make some decisions
Get a fresh start!!

Try it before its too late
and you didn't even find a time
To stop me from going
Its very steepy climb

I have always loved you 50!\!@!_
I'll always keep loving you
No matter how far you are
No matter what you do...

She is Just Like This and Thats What Holds My Heart...

Hi everyone..!!! Someone once asked me one thing...Whats there in her that compells me to stick to her... Why I can't leave her and move ahead... There are many gals who will take good care of me, who will love me, who will always be with me.... I can choose one from them. Hah! He even said that whats the point in loving someone whom you know won't ever say YES to you and you even don't know which way she will part at one time to never come back again in your life...!!! I thought true. He said truth but why I love her ?

I answered him in plain text - I LOVE HER... But as I sat down today I poundered over Whats so special about her that I can't stop loving her ? Is it necessary for something special present in your companion... I felt NO. Here it goes as I felt for her right from beginning to today... I LOVE YOU and THATS TRUE...

I love your ever gorgeous smile
Upon that loving face, of yours
It is the tenderness of your love
My heart is simply destined for.

It is your gentle, soothing voice
That eases my heart, every way
It is the loving comfort, sweetheart
Through all the words you say.

It's the gentleness of your bliss
That embraces my tender heart
Your love has simply captured
Every dream and each thought.

It is the beauty within your eyes
Amazingly beautiful and green
Your love truely gave a purpose
To everything, true love means.

Though most importantly
She won't ever say YES
Openly to ME even once
But its upto you to guess
With her talks, her ways
very different from others
Pointing out straight -
We are nothing but Lovers...

Hah! Thats just my imagination or as I think... Its not complete truth.. :( But I have my hopes, I have my faiths, that one day probably she will come to know that she matters a lot to me. She is the one whom I ever loved with all heart in life. My past always stops me from getting nearer to her as I know I was bad, rather am bad... Wish some wonders happen to change back everything. To change me to innocent once again, so that I can gather all my courage and right away ask her to be with me forever...
Waiting for the time when perhaps we could be together... Just you and I for lifelong... Feeling the joy of oneness not felt ever... Just you and I for lifelong...
I will always Love you the same...

I LOVE YOU ▬╡丂۞刀ﾑﾚ╞▬

Maybe it’s just another
cliché love poem!
but you make me forget
that I’m Afraid to care
or maybe you’re ALL 
that matters, for time stays
still when I’m here
(inside your love)

You make me lovesick
but I wont take no pills!
loving you is wrong
and I wanna be ill!

It’s just another
cliché love Poem
but I’m writing it
for you!
I know it’ll Never be
(close to) Good enough
but it would seem
that I’ve got so much to prove

I’ll capture the Angels
and collect the stars
douse the sun
dip the Moon in tar
Til all that’s left
is you and me
Lost inside the other
Inflowing eternity.
XOXO

Well tried writing her name this time. I hope she doesn't reads it or she'll stab me to death for sure... :)

No matter how far we go,
Memories will never fail to follow,
All I have are sleepless nights
and dreams left hollow,
Never know how and when
we parted our ways
Weary steps those have lost
track and count of the days...
Just one desire to be with
You again...
Keep smiling through
the Pain...
Wish you were here and
everything just fine
So that I could whisper to
you - be JUST MINE!!!

ALWAYS LOVED YOU AND WILL ALWAYS DO... SO WHAT IF YOU CAN'T ACCEPT ME BECAUSE OF YOUR RESTRICTIONS; I AM NOT RESTRICTED BY ANYONE TO STOP LOVING YOU... THATS COMPLETELY MY BUSINESS AND MY CHOICE... I GET HURT I KNOW BUT YOU WON'T COME TO KNOW THE SOLACE AND PIECE THIS GIVES TO MY HEART...!!!

Didn't Want To Hurt You

Wish you’d stop pretending
Do you really think
I don’t know
What’s goin’ on
Right now
‘Tween you and me

Thought you already knew
I made
A mistake
And I never wanted
To hurt you
I don’t know what to do
Without you

This is
So personal
Closed off from the world
I’ve been waitin’ here
Am I that unclear

Thought you already knew
I made
A mistake
And I never wanted
To hurt you
I don’t know what to do
Without you

Cuz I still need you
I still want you
Here
And I can’t say it
These words
Or I’ll start to fake it
Just hold it close and keep it near
…Wish you were here

Thought you already knew
I made
A mistake
And I never wanted
To hurt you
I don’t know what to do
Without you

Time is slippin’
Away
For us
To correct
Our mistakes

So make your move
Let me loose
Or hold me tight
Hurry up
I ain’t all night
(Where’s the fight I was looking for?
Was kinda hopin’ for somethin’ more)

Thought you already knew
I made
A mistake
And I never wanted
To hurt you
I don’t know what to do
Without you

Yeah, yeah
Please come back
I don’t know what to do
Without you

Hurted You Made Even Me Cry!!!

Friends think that i can't talk to you,
Because i like you too much,
But i know the truth,
It's all because of me,
I don't want to hurt you,
I've seen my family broken,
Time and again,
Due to faulty relationships,
And i don't want to feel that pain,
You're the first guy,
That i ever shielded away,
Trying my hardest not to hurt you,
That would hurt me too,
Other guys,
They never had this affect,
I don't want you close to me,
Cause then you'd realize how broken i really am,
What if you don't like the real me?
I don't want you to meet the broken parts,
But that's all i have to give,
I'm sorry in advance,
If i'll ever hurt you,
But i need a friend,
And you're the last one left...