I would tell you
that i could fill those spaces between your fingers
with mine
but would you want me too ?
I would tell you,
that I love you, always have and always will
but would you walk away ?
I would hold you,
dry the tears and bring the dreams to life
but is there a place for me in your dreams ?
I would wait for you
face my fears ignore and their sneers
all for you
but would you ever come?
I would kiss you,
to numb your pain
and stop the tears half down your cheek
but would my lips burn your face?
I would die for you
whatever i had to do,
and kiss you goodbye, closing my eyes
but would i see you again?
I would tell you these things
love you, hold you, save you,
but would it be enough for your heart?
If i tell you these things
our friendship could die
If I don't tell you
I will die inside.

Sorry for not writing these days. Had my exams..!! Hell I ruined these exams and am sure not to score that many marks to stood first again in University. Though I tried my level best but you were there with me haunting in my thoughts everytime... I know am not that good as you need. I don't have any single thing that I can show you to prove am good and made for you...

Thanks for realising me everything in my life... Thanks for everything you did and made me feel that am the worst person and worst thing that can happen to anyone in life.

You had my heart...

You were my soul...

You were the air I breathed

And everything beautiful

You were my beginning

But chose to be my ending

When you left and tore

My dreams apart

I didn't understand back then

You needed a life where you

Wouldn't have to pretend

A life without me

No, I didn't understand

I forgot that you were also

A human being

Capable of hurting and of being Hurt

Your leaving I mistook

Thought no one could ever love me

The way I loved you

Just because I plainly wasn't

Good enough for you

I didn't know that

Out of the ruins, out of

The one you left behind

You gave me a new beginning

That out of the pain,

You showed me truth

Out of your leaving

You gave me hope

Out of the loneliness

And the lack of you,

You gave me a chance

To live my life

Oh, I was given the world

When you faded from my side

Then I was free

Free to see so much beauty

Much more than

what I saw in you

Free to fulfill

What I can be

That was wasted

When I was confined in you

To stand alone when I used to

Live because of you

Your leaving took away

The fear of losing you

As well as the thinking that

Your loving me

Was all I needed to know

I thought I never could

Imagine life without you

But now I know better…

There is a life Even after you

A life full of pains and shadows...

Being miserable good to bitter

Where I stand now...

LONELY but FREE of Fear of Losing You!!!

I have lost you!!!

Tears don't crawl...

they just flow out of these pots,

People won't ever see them

as they are idiotic lots

And even if they see them

I have better things to say to

then telling it was a gal who broke me

a gal who was my life

left me...

left me to be like this but I love this life anyways...

Thanks for being such a lovely piece in my life...!!!

Broken Promises !!!

I’m sorry for the broken promises I broke, I’m sorry for the pain that is unspoken I’m sorry for the things never said I’m sorry for your pain, for the little things I didn’t say Oh but baby, im still loving you I know I let you down, but baby I don’t want you to walk away Turn your face to me and let me kiss away the pain Give me your hand again, and I won’t let go this time I know I promised I wouldn’t leave Like I did before, but honey it was out of my hands Both times that I went the other way Turn to me, and I’ll let you know that I’m always here Through the fights, and the anger. Baby Oh please don’t let go! I’m sorry for promises that I broke I’m sorry Baby for I let you go to many times I love you still, and I always will Do you remember so long ago, we felt so right? Each night we dreamed of the others touch Help me remember, the way that we used to be. Baby, it seemed so long ago, you used to love me. Turn and face me, please let me know the way you feel I’m sorry for the promises that I broke I’m sorry Baby for I let you go to many times I love you still and always will Times have passes oh so fast I looked in your eyes, and I remembered. The love that was there, is still there, Honey our love isn’t gone yet. Don’t let it go I can’t bear to lose what we had Forever it will be in my heart. Hold my hand, never let go. I’m sorry for the promises that I broke I’m sorry Baby for I let you go to many times I love you still and always will Thank you for the love you freely gave You are my light, the penetrating happiness You broke the dark, and saved me from unrest Baby Just how far, can you walk before you turn? I walked a thousand miles to find the love that I found long ago. Oh how fast these days have gone. Days ago you were a friend who had my heart Now its the present, and you have my heart still and forever I’m sorry for the promises that I broke I’m sorry Baby for I let you go to many times Baby I love you still and always will You walked into my life when I needed you most, You took me into your arms, and eased the pain. In short span our love grew all the stronger, 24 hours ruined what those days had built. You were and are forever the one I love I’m begging you so, to take my hand and walk another thousand years Baby, take my hand and make my heart whole forever and still. Baby I love you still and always will Take my hand and let’s walk the other way

My Love... Will Always Be There For You..!! (Sad)

Citing one the story I read long back... today suddenly I remembered it again... I will love you... Love you always but today I need to go... As thats best for everyone... I know it hurts to part away... I was just your friend but You are and will be my Love... Please forgive me whenever we will meet again. I will neva forget you and will always cherish the times I have spent with you. Forever Yours...

I walk endlessly down the shore, the sea mocking my conscience. I hear the waves whispering its verdict that I am wrong, further crushing the guilt embedded in my soul. I cannot cry no more for the sorrow I feel is too profound, too deep. I look up and see the scattered clouds partially dim the littered stars, tormenting the knowledge that I could never have again the love that I had and lost. I see the crescent moon staring down at me with pity, reminding of the warm and gentle smile on the face I know I could not find in anyone anymore. I turn my face away from that harsh reality, only to be greeted by a cold breeze that seemed like a blow to my already bruised self. Shivering, I pull my jacket tighter around me, forming a barricade that would keep me from the numbing agony creeping through my entire being. In the battle between the conscience and the heart, I fear that it was I who gave the victory over to conscience. And now I must bear the guilt brought by my actions. I have come to accept that destiny for I know that it is what I deserve for hurting the one being that matters to me most.

Hollow. Yes, this is what I am and what I will be for the rest of my life. For I am void of the love that was in the palm of my hands and now gone, because I let it slip from my fingers.

I continue my pace and with every step, I feel the sand sink beneath my feet, filling the spaces between my toes. I know I leave my footprints behind, only to be washed away by the sea. I shall never look back . . .

I hear footsteps muffled by the shingles, slowly coming towards me. Stop. Even though I could not see him, I know he is there. His very presence emits an aura that reaches me and touches the fathomless cave within me, igniting warmth throughout this body. My steps faltered to a stop. I slowly raise my eyes to focus on the figure standing a few yards away from me. My breath caught, I tried to swallow the lump in my throat but it felt like it was paralyzed. My pulse quickened its pace against my will. The sandals dangling from my fingers slowly slipped their way down to land beside my feet.

His white shirt is a stark contrast against the black velvety sky and once more, his beauty astonishes me. And just looking at him only added to the throbbing pain inside me, the agony of losing the exquisite creature that was once mine.

My eyes cannot meet his face for I already know what I will find there—hatred, scorn, and disgust. And I am filled with shame. I stand there, my gaze riveted to the ground, not daring to look up for if I do, if I see into his eyes, it would shatter me to pieces. And then it all comes back to me. I can still remember that night, in this beach. This beach that was witness to our first kiss, that heeded to our whispers of love as we declared souls to each other. It was a night filled with promises of a lifetime together. Our promise that was sealed with the kiss of life and the cry of the ocean.

*Italic*Look at me, his mind silently tells me, please just look at me.*Italic*

I take in shattered breaths, gathering all the strength I need, uttering a silent prayer to God. I level my gaze to his and his eyes find mine and for a moment, time seemed to stop. There were no words, no actions, only the existence of two minds, two hearts.

I cannot find disdain or contempt on his beautiful face but only questions . . .and hope. He is hoping that I still remember the promise, hoping for my love, for a thousand lifetimes together. I search deep into his eyes and what I find there completely seizes my heart and batters my soul. All my restraint broke and my knees gave way. I collapse into a heap on my knees on the cool glittering sand, his gaze never leaving mine. I break down, helpless tears streaming down my cheeks. I bury my face in my hands, the jacket forgotten as I unconsciously loosen my grip and let it out of my hands, granting it the freedom as it flew with the wind.

A wrenched cry of tormented anguish tears from my chest as the realization strikes me. His eyes tell me that he is floundering in a depth of misery that exceeded even my own. My hands itch to touch his face, to soothe him into a dull peace for both of us. To tell him that everything is alright. But I cannot. An invisible barrier stands between us, keeping me paralyzed and unable to cross the small distance to get to his welcoming arms and be with him.

*Italic*I need to know . . . please just tell me, he silently begs.*Italic*

And right then and there, I know that I cannot suffer enough to pay for the agony I have casted upon this beautiful creature.

He is asking me, no, he is silently pleading with me to know why.

I slowly shake my head, the tears flowing from my eyes mingling with the salty air. The waves crash mercilessly on the shore, taking with it my sandals as it retreats back to the ocean. I do not care anymore for I believe that the world has already taken the most important thing from my heart. I’ve got nothing more to lose.

He moves his head in a curt nod as if to accept my decision and it is all I can do not to throw up when I saw the disappointment written all over his face.

He softens his eyes and his face was that of an angel’s. A small nervous smile played across his lips. I brace my palms on the sand, my stomach turning over as I realize what he is asking of me. It has been a long time since I heard him speak and his deep strained voice played like music through my ears:

“Will there still be a place for me in your heart? Even the smallest space will do.”

It is such a heartbreaking statement, his way of asking me if I still love him. And there is no denying it, the candle of my love for him still burns bright and I know it will never fade. This is what he is waiting to hear. I can feel the tension in the air touching my skin and I shiver. The silence seemed to stretch forever and I am dying to tell him the truth, to finally hold him close and have him eternally. But I hold back. It is my conscience holding me back and I face him as I breathed out in a strangled sob:

“I’m sorry. I can’t.”

The hurt look on his face is the final blow, but still his mind is communicating with mine, telling me:

*Italic*Your know you’re the only one. I gave you my love and it’s yours forever.*Italic*

And although we didn’t touch, I felt his love pour through me like heat from the sun. I cannot bear the sea torture we are flowing through and so I tell him:

*Italic*Please, don’t do this. You cannot love me anymore. Don’t make it harder for both of us . . .*Italic*

He threw me one last long look and there I saw gleaming tears running down his face. I hear his barely audible whisper then he was gone, leaving me cold and desolate and as barren as the desert. His goodbye still echoes through my heart.

Seperating Distances...

I Love You Baby.

I don't want you to go away,

I don't want you to leave me.

I don't want us to break.

But I realize you don't want to be with me,

Or maybe you do just not totally,

Cause of everything thats happened,

Everything you think of me.

I wish things wasn't like this.

I miss the days when we was us.

It scares me to think that them days won't ever be.

Not because I will wake up and know that I'm alone but,

Because I will wake up and know I don't have the best person in my life,

The one person I truly love with all my heart,

The one person I wanted a future with.

Sometimes I would dream about our future,

With our kids and us smiling.

I know you are the only thing that makes life worth living,

The reason why I got up everyday.

I don't know what I'm gonna do,

If I don't have you.

I guess my life will never be complete,

My heart will never be whole.

But if your life sucks with me in it,

I'd rather know now.

Cause all I want is your happiness.

And that I swear on my life.

Thats all I've ever wanted.

I love you and I will understand if you don't want me anymore.

But baby you was never a mistake to me.

I'll treasure all our moments.

I know no one will even compare to you, to us.

x Bye princess, my everlasting love. Please don't ever doubt my love. x
@->- With Love Always