I'll Love You And Will Always Do.. No Matter What You Do...!!!

Sometimes life is so untrue... It even does not tell you what is going to happen or not however still you always figure it out that what is your destiny... I know I wont ever get you in my life... I know you won't be mine anytime... Even if after 2 yrs I'll come to you not even then.. Not today Not tomorrow but I wish somehow some miracle happen... Why miracles never happen in my life? I have always heard that miracles do happen and if they really do - I just want one thing in my life and thats you... I'll get all others with my hardwork and your love I have faith...


I sat down to write
my feelings for you
As the words came out
I realized it was nothing new

You have heard all of this
Many times before
But let me tell you again
Hear me out once more

What I feel I need to tell you
Comes from deep within my heart
It carries a pain
That is tearing me apart

It's this hold that you have on me
This grip that's so tight
I can't break free
Try as I might

If ever a feeling
Was ever so strong
It's my love I feel for you
The one I have been holding so long

You can't give me the same
Same love back to me
Your life is not yours
You haven't broken free

Someday when I am gone
You will feel sad and blue
For the love you let go
And the person you once knew

Good luck with your life
And affairs of the heart
Make some decisions
Get a fresh start!!

Try it before its too late
and you didn't even find a time
To stop me from going
Its very steepy climb

I have always loved you 50!\!@!_
I'll always keep loving you
No matter how far you are
No matter what you do...

She is Just Like This and Thats What Holds My Heart...

Hi everyone..!!! Someone once asked me one thing...Whats there in her that compells me to stick to her... Why I can't leave her and move ahead... There are many gals who will take good care of me, who will love me, who will always be with me.... I can choose one from them. Hah! He even said that whats the point in loving someone whom you know won't ever say YES to you and you even don't know which way she will part at one time to never come back again in your life...!!! I thought true. He said truth but why I love her ?

I answered him in plain text - I LOVE HER... But as I sat down today I poundered over Whats so special about her that I can't stop loving her ? Is it necessary for something special present in your companion... I felt NO. Here it goes as I felt for her right from beginning to today... I LOVE YOU and THATS TRUE...

I love your ever gorgeous smile
Upon that loving face, of yours
It is the tenderness of your love
My heart is simply destined for.

It is your gentle, soothing voice
That eases my heart, every way
It is the loving comfort, sweetheart
Through all the words you say.

It's the gentleness of your bliss
That embraces my tender heart
Your love has simply captured
Every dream and each thought.

It is the beauty within your eyes
Amazingly beautiful and green
Your love truely gave a purpose
To everything, true love means.

Though most importantly
She won't ever say YES
Openly to ME even once
But its upto you to guess
With her talks, her ways
very different from others
Pointing out straight -
We are nothing but Lovers...

Hah! Thats just my imagination or as I think... Its not complete truth.. :( But I have my hopes, I have my faiths, that one day probably she will come to know that she matters a lot to me. She is the one whom I ever loved with all heart in life. My past always stops me from getting nearer to her as I know I was bad, rather am bad... Wish some wonders happen to change back everything. To change me to innocent once again, so that I can gather all my courage and right away ask her to be with me forever...
Waiting for the time when perhaps we could be together... Just you and I for lifelong... Feeling the joy of oneness not felt ever... Just you and I for lifelong...
I will always Love you the same...

I LOVE YOU ▬╡丂۞刀ﾑﾚ╞▬

Maybe it’s just another
cliché love poem!
but you make me forget
that I’m Afraid to care
or maybe you’re ALL 
that matters, for time stays
still when I’m here
(inside your love)

You make me lovesick
but I wont take no pills!
loving you is wrong
and I wanna be ill!

It’s just another
cliché love Poem
but I’m writing it
for you!
I know it’ll Never be
(close to) Good enough
but it would seem
that I’ve got so much to prove

I’ll capture the Angels
and collect the stars
douse the sun
dip the Moon in tar
Til all that’s left
is you and me
Lost inside the other
Inflowing eternity.
XOXO

Well tried writing her name this time. I hope she doesn't reads it or she'll stab me to death for sure... :)

No matter how far we go,
Memories will never fail to follow,
All I have are sleepless nights
and dreams left hollow,
Never know how and when
we parted our ways
Weary steps those have lost
track and count of the days...
Just one desire to be with
You again...
Keep smiling through
the Pain...
Wish you were here and
everything just fine
So that I could whisper to
you - be JUST MINE!!!

ALWAYS LOVED YOU AND WILL ALWAYS DO... SO WHAT IF YOU CAN'T ACCEPT ME BECAUSE OF YOUR RESTRICTIONS; I AM NOT RESTRICTED BY ANYONE TO STOP LOVING YOU... THATS COMPLETELY MY BUSINESS AND MY CHOICE... I GET HURT I KNOW BUT YOU WON'T COME TO KNOW THE SOLACE AND PIECE THIS GIVES TO MY HEART...!!!

Didn't Want To Hurt You

Wish you’d stop pretending
Do you really think
I don’t know
What’s goin’ on
Right now
‘Tween you and me

Thought you already knew
I made
A mistake
And I never wanted
To hurt you
I don’t know what to do
Without you

This is
So personal
Closed off from the world
I’ve been waitin’ here
Am I that unclear

Thought you already knew
I made
A mistake
And I never wanted
To hurt you
I don’t know what to do
Without you

Cuz I still need you
I still want you
Here
And I can’t say it
These words
Or I’ll start to fake it
Just hold it close and keep it near
…Wish you were here

Thought you already knew
I made
A mistake
And I never wanted
To hurt you
I don’t know what to do
Without you

Time is slippin’
Away
For us
To correct
Our mistakes

So make your move
Let me loose
Or hold me tight
Hurry up
I ain’t all night
(Where’s the fight I was looking for?
Was kinda hopin’ for somethin’ more)

Thought you already knew
I made
A mistake
And I never wanted
To hurt you
I don’t know what to do
Without you

Yeah, yeah
Please come back
I don’t know what to do
Without you

Hurted You Made Even Me Cry!!!

Friends think that i can't talk to you,
Because i like you too much,
But i know the truth,
It's all because of me,
I don't want to hurt you,
I've seen my family broken,
Time and again,
Due to faulty relationships,
And i don't want to feel that pain,
You're the first guy,
That i ever shielded away,
Trying my hardest not to hurt you,
That would hurt me too,
Other guys,
They never had this affect,
I don't want you close to me,
Cause then you'd realize how broken i really am,
What if you don't like the real me?
I don't want you to meet the broken parts,
But that's all i have to give,
I'm sorry in advance,
If i'll ever hurt you,
But i need a friend,
And you're the last one left...

Heartbroken!!

This is not mine.. But yeah... Somewhere down the blue it describes me today much in better picture...

Is there a better place,
To be right now,
Than to be home,
Listening to the crickets’ sounds,
Outside the windows.
Is there a better place,
To be right now,
Than in the bed,
Closing my eyes,
Falling into a deep sleep,
To forget about the days,
Forget about the nights,
Forget about you.

Heartbroken,
Nothing better than to sleep,
To forget that you are gone,
To forget your lies,
Forget the way,
You told me,
You never loved me,
Forget the way,
You looked at me,
When you left me,
I want to forget,
I want to leave this world,
Close my eyes,
Fall to sleep to stop the heart,
From beating.

I block my ears,
From hearing the sounds,
Like your voice,
Like when you sing to me,
Those lovely songs,
They sounded to tender,
Now they kill me,
They hurt me,
I don’t want to hear anything,
Don’t want to hear the waves,
Hitting against the sand,
Don’t want to hear the birds,
Chirping outside the windows.
Don’t want to see my face,
Don’t want to see you,
Don’t want anything,
That has to do with you,
I want to close,
I want to block away,
The world to stop the pain,
In my heart.
I want my heart to stop beating,
To stop bleeding,
From your words,
Your lies.

Lonesome!!!

It was a lovely day today,
She called me up
Purpose was just to say-
That she finally give up!

Give up on me
Coz I was not good
Oh my Lord! Why did thee ?
From here I started, Where I stood

She says its more than enough
But what did I do
I never wished hurt her though
I was that I couldn't do

Being human means
You make several mistakes
But was it always me
Or some blame even she takes ?

Sarcasm was always plenty
Whenever she spoke
The things that she said
Made me many a times choke

Still never complaint
Coz I wanted her as she is
Never a person can accept
anyone in a show biz

If it was enough
From the D-day
You could have let me know
I would have swayed

Its not necessary
that I be happy everytime
Coz I was Alone!
Away from other being a swine!!

You can blame on me
That I did wrong with you
I knew am bad enough
and knew you won't be through

I was wrong, I was bad
I knew it a long back
But never realized it
Till you were headed back

I should be really thankful
to you for making me realize
How good I was for
making relations subsides!!

Should I leave? Or should I not?
I am still confused yet
Choosing first one seems good
For you, atleast thats you wanted and get!!

You hurted me most of time
But scarcely you apologized
For I never made you realize
Neither wanted to priortize

Such things never were
Important to me
As you were the one
With whom I wanted to be

You were the whom
I had put on all my trust
Even if the people in past
Broked it upto crust!!

You were the whom
Who was more to me
But turned out a dream
Or just a spree

There were differences, I know
Even I was not good though
But as I learnt through times
If you respect differences,
Then Only Relations Grow!!!

I wrote this when we did not talk for continuously 3 days... !! I know how those three days were for me... They were like endless time, every second was heavy to breathe.. totally in mess, i brought my pen and paper in work. The things were moving past me very fast. But I still continue hoping that one day we will be together. Guys to be very serious, I have flirted lots in my life... I regret. May be what I did to others, its just a revert. I know she'll never love me in life, but still continuing hope is what max I can do...!!! :(

I had time such as this
Not knowing where or when
Yet still hoping our paths
Will soon merge once again

Memories confronted me
During times you were gone
Yet I wait in anticipation
Hoping paths blend into one

I thought of you often
Even though we were apart
As I recall paths that led
Upon journeys heart to heart

I had patience on my side
So the storm I can weather
As hope springs eternally
In uniting our hearts together

I had not given up on hope
It helped me make it through
While I await your return
Dreams of you and I continue...

Miss You Most!!!

There are only two times when I miss you most.... Before you come and After you leave.. Stay by me forever...So I am relieved of this pain!! You would this much! Won't you ? I know you won't but am used to your NO's... :)

The clouds slowly move
Unblocking my vision
Of the full, blue moon
Allowing me to see the stars
That I continue to wish upon
I hope tonight you are safe
I hope that you’re able to find the sleep
That you so desperately deserve
I often wonder, if at times
You forget someone over here
Misses you and keeps you in their prayers
I wish there was some way
To be held in your arms…
That I could look into your eyes
And let you worries disappear
There isn’t much I can do
Being way over here
I lose sleep over thoughts of you
The blankets that once surrounded me
In their warmth
Are now in a mess on the floor
I wish you were here to take their place
I look up towards the sky
And let the wind take my words
Through the miles
…I miss you
.....

Describing My Soul, My Name, My Love.. My Everything...!!!

Describe her someone said
And so I began……
She floods my heart with love,
She touches me
In a way I have never experienced before.
She stirs me and moves me,
She fills my eyes with tears,
My heart with longing,
My soul with yearning.
She kisses me and I am swept away,
I respond to her touch,
Like the sand to the sea.
I dissolve into her……
I crave her touch
Long for her next breath on my skin,
Thirst for her like a desert
Hungering for a rain.
I am compelled only to touch her,
To want her, to love her.
She is my dream in the dark vast of night,
She is the glow on my skin,
The smile on my face,
The sparkle in my eye,
The Love of my life…
I love her.

Aaj Main Upar Aasma Neeche

Well seriously guys feeling as on top of the world... Topped my exams in University but I can't believe... I always wished to be Gold Medalist when I chose LLB but yeah now I can see am right way on my track again. This all is just coz of your wishes... May be that coz of anger people say anything to me but I know no one was bad to me..They did the same which anyone else could have done in their place. Neither they were bad and nor they are... People can't be bad at any point of time, its just the time that doesn't cooperates with us. We are never bad, we are always good.
Whatever we do, we think and do... So never blame yourself or others for
being bad at anytime.

Well and most importantly, she knows that and probably most of you guys knows her... The name which starts from my Soul and ends with all my Love, she was the one who was really behind this success. Hadn't she came in my life, I would not have taken my life seriously after quitting
NDA but now I have a reason to grow.. a reason to be happy.... a reason to smile with all my heart.

So what if she is not ready to be with me for my lifetime, her wishes and her smile will alwz guide me through. Her face will alwz inspire me to do things which are the best in me. Her voice will alwz echo in sounds going to heart, to spine thuddering me inspiring me...

And yeah!! Most of all, I'll show you one day, I have the guts to rise from
my ash again, to be a phoenix in guise...

My strength, My weakness - you are. Its just that I do not look at the
latter one...
;)

I remember a poem that I read somewhere when I was in Class XI(when I was motivated enough to join Forces but then somehow that poem became irrelevant to me.... It has once again came back live in my life... Wanted to share that. Here it goes -

Whatever our hands touch...we leave

fingerprints on.

On walls, on furniture, on door knobs,

dishes and books.

As we touch we leave our identity..

Oh please where ever I go today...

help me leave heart prints.

Heart prints of compassion,

understanding and love.

Heart prints of kindness and genuine concern.

May my heart touch a lonely neighbor...

or a runaway daughter...

or an anxious mother...

or perhaps a dear friend!

I shall go out today...

to leave heart prints...

and if some one should say...

"I felt your touch!"