Chances are you'll see her
when you close your eyes tonight.
You know she'll always be there,
with love, to hold you tight.
You'll hear her when she whispers
sweet dreams, and she declares,
that you're the only one for her,
no other could compare.
You'll know how much she needs you
when you taste her eager kiss.
True love so undeniable,
now burns upon her lips.
You'll feel it when she touches you,
when hearts and souls enmesh.
You'll melt in red hot passion,
from the fire of flesh on flesh.
Yes, chances are you'll see her,
behind those jaded eyes.
She's nestled in the shadows,
of a love that never dies.
But there are just chances
Reality is that ...
She’ll never love you
Atleast in this life
Coz as per her you are
Not the person she thought you’d be might.
She’ll never cuddle you
the way you dreamt
Coz it wasn’t her wish
You need to leapt
She’ll neva touch you
As you always wished
Coz you thought that
She would have also kissed!
But its not possible
Alteast not this day
Coz she has something important
in her life upfront to be laid
I know the pain
I know it increases
Let it be there to
crimple your heart in creases
Doesn’t matters as she was
Not there when you need her most
When you desired for her most
But the Golden Opportunity was it
that she has LOST!
Looser was not you
Looser can’t be you
There was nothing you lost
But just got a nice clue
Clue that this world is like this
the one whom you think are near
Are the one’s who’d hissed
and torn you apart and left you in tears...
Possibilities are still there,
She could come again
But will I be justified
To give her my heart to play with it again!!!
Confusion is the thing that arise
In all these confusions, I shall die
My heart bound with love – says Yes
My consciousness denies saying nary a single night...
Still I move, Still I love you
Can’t remember single moment
When I didn’t do!
But now can’t go any longer
then just to remain Dormant!!!
Are My Heart and Dreams left Hollow... Koi toh Kahin se kuch Bolo... Lol isn't it Rhyming !!!
Tuesday, March 31, 2009
Dormant Shall I Remain ??
I Still Continue To Love You... But I Fear...
Beautifully broken comes from a song
images of a life full
of things gone wrong.
Broken implies something useless and
old,
no longer wanted, tarnished and cold.
But that's not the
image of her that I see,
not the image of her she's revealed to
me.
Yes, I understand the pieces of pain,
senseless events with
nothing to gain.
Every event that comes from her past
is just
like a piece of crooked edged glass.
Each single piece could be
happy or sad,
could mean something joyful or terribly bad.
But,
each little piece is personally unique
like the marks that are found on a
precious antique.
Breaks and marks that show she's alive
from
the good and bad things she had to survive.
So, like a window of
beautiful stained glass
kaleidoscope colors reflecting her
past.
The pieces all join in the image I see
of a sweet lovely
woman so amazing to me.
Friday, March 27, 2009
Ah!!! It was a Day....
Our relationship has never been perfect
But our love has
always been true
Thats why no matter what
Obstacles life throws us
I
will never give up on you.
We've been through some difficult times
That now remain in the past
It's what happens from here on out that
counts
But it will take both of us to make it last.
You have done
some hurtful things to me
And I have done the same
And yet here we are
hand in hand
Contemplating all the joys that we behold
In all our future
days.
Regardless of all the tears I have shed
And the pain we have
both felt
It's you and only you that can make me smile
And its you that
knows how
To erase a frown from my face
And these are the memories
I'll cherish even after I die.
You have truly changed my life
In
ways you can only imagine
God brought you into my life at the perfect time
And you have made my life complete
And I hope I have completed yours
too.
Thursday, March 26, 2009
Regrets...!!!
Today my heart is heavy,
as I bow my head in shame,
I
search for easy answers,
or someone that I can blame.
The salty
teardrops trickle
down my worn and tired face,
symbolic of what my life
has been,
a sad and lonely place.
I close my eyes and
ponder,
will I ever be free,
will I ever learn to love someone,
will
they like the me they see?
How could I not love her;
why was I
afraid?
Why did I condemn her,
for mistakes that others
made?
The tears they seem endless,
my life flashes before my
eyes,
How much longer must I carry,
the weight of this
disguise.
I close my eyes and ponder,
will I ever be
free,
will I ever learn to love someone,
will they like the me they
see?
Will there ever be true happiness
for someone just like
me?
Wednesday, March 25, 2009
Saturday, March 21, 2009
Apologias!!!
How deep your feelings ran
I’m sorry I was blind to see
What was there for me to hold?
My heart aches for how I hurt you
The insensitivity that I showed
Please know I never meant it
I simply did not know
I am not a perfect being
As a person, I make mistakes
But know that I love you
It grows more each passing day
Let’s put the past behind us
Learn how to trust again
For your heart I do not want to break
But embrace for days to come
I want to see this new love grow
Into something more than I can imagine
Please find it in your heart to forgive
These past things that once took place
I am awed that you have chosen me
To share this time in your life
I promise to give you all I have
For a chance to love again
Its not easy to be going..!!!
You were alwz there whenever I needed you
and I'll be always there for you,
Whosoeva complains of time,
I am with you too...
But just in case you regret and think,
of not good choice you made,
just look into the heart of soul,
you will find anoda you....
It was one day that I sat down,
to compile the best things we have done,
the best thing occurred to us,
and then I realized nothing is best,
Its only things gets better as we do...
Today even whenvr I think of the time
the time we were together,
Jolly, Joy, Fun altogther,
Tears rolls down my eyes with happiness,
Or sadness when I look around,
and never find you...
Though physical bounded we seperate
But in my heart you always remain
One day we'll be with each other again
Sharing the old laughter days
And that day I'll say...
I have found a great F.R.I.E.N.D. in you...
Bye the way.. the title of my book to be
published will be "Everyone Who Loves, Not Just One!!!"
Friday, March 20, 2009
I love you with all of my heart
With a love I just can't control
Its a feeling thats not just a bond of our hearts
Its more like a bond of our souls
To hold your hand is not just a sweet jesture
Its a connection of my life to you
To kiss your lips is simply perfection
Its all my lips want to do
To tell you I love you is not to speak mere words
Its my heart screaming out from within
Put your ear over my heart and listen
It wants to tell you over and over again
I love you I love you I love you
Just wanna show I care
but, I hold out, for another breath
and I am drowning in these tears!!
No one said love would
Ever hurt this much!
Never thought that
someone else would care!
but you see through it all
to who I am in here
still, you say you love me
Standing beside in time and Fear
You make me want
To love myself...
(forgive me, but I forgot this line)
And see the things you see
I KNOW I'll Never be enough
But so much you are to me!
Its My Birthday Approaching... And I am Waiting !!
The hour ends before my take
Sitting, thinking, waiting; my mind escapes
The day grows old as night passes
Wolves crying, coyotes howling; anticipating
Watching, staring, seeing -- nothing
Silence begins the day
as morning comes without notice
Tears begin to fall, slowly
The day moves on without hope
Wishing to be what is not to be
The sun moves to its peak
without a whisper or retreat
Time moving, but still empty
Stomach aching, curling
Still waiting
I still remember the time
I still remember the same
We are friends and can't go ahead
But dunno why my heart aching for change...
I hate the way you treated me
I hate what you did to me
When you laughed at what I asked
When you weren't there when I passed
I loved you more than anything
I loved that you thought the same thing
You made me feel like I was in heaven
You now have me seeking a safe haven
You Are My Angel...
Wednesday, March 18, 2009
Monday, March 16, 2009
Forever Love...
To all the love I've known,
When is it time to end your pain,
And leave me all alone?
I've watched you on your good days when
I feel your strength renewed;
But shortly after little ups,
The down days then ensue.
We ride this roller-coaster of
Emotions as we try,
To make it through another day,
And yet, I can't deny ...
That as I look into your face
On days that have been bad,
I see a look that beckons me
It's tired, and hurt, and sad.
The little spark I used to see
Behind those loving eyes,
Is growing ever clouded
By life's cruel inhumane side.
I try to see beyond the pain
You feel with every step;
And softly whisper to myself
This may get better yet.
If I can bear to watch you
Just another day or two;
I justify my reasons to
Ensure I cling to you.
For letting go is harder for
The person left behind;
It means that if I let you go,
I cannot turn back time.
Back to the days I long for now,
When you were full of life;
And every day held promise,
And our futures, clear and bright.
But now the lights are darkening ...
We take it daily now;
I cannot see our futures clear
Or think beyond this cloud.
I think the hardest part in this
Is never knowing why,
I have to be courageous
And I have to say goodbye.
For if I let myself admit
It's time to let you go;
I'd have to face reality
Without you ... but I know ...
That soon I have to face the
Final outcome that I dread,
And holding on will only serve
To hurt you in the end.
You've given such unselfish love
For all our time in life,
But if I hold too tightly,
You'll not move t'ward the light ...
On to a better life, where you
Can once again be free,
Of all the pain and discomfort
That holds you here to me.
So if I find the courage just to say
This last farewell,
I hope you will forgive me for
The time it took me; still ...
I'll hold with me, the memories
That in my heart remain,
Pray one day, down the road a'ways
... They'll lesson my own pain.