Good Bye...!!

Never thought that this day would come in my life... Today am writing my last post... My last as am lost... Am lost somewhere deep in my thoughts... though the things are coming up but now I want some break... Broken I am asking for break from worldly things... I loved you, thought I could anytime convey.. I could tell you how much you mean to me but its alright... Things have to be dis way... Guys in my last post I'll write nothing but the piece I wrote last night sitting besides her... just next to her seat. I was sitting there and seeing things changing way to fast. Nothing was in my hand or I could have hold it for last... I know I am BAD... I know... I don't deserve anyone in my life or atleast I don't deserve her as she is very good. She deserves someone really very good who can take care of her... I will try to convince myself and the next post you will see when I'll be convinced.. Here it goes what I wrote yesterday night, the night which seemed very short. The night which I wished would never last but it did at last... Here I go with this -

Didnt remember the last

time I had heartful laugh

Things manipulated

You never saw me squall

You went away from my life

Tearing apart me in pieces

I was like this when I met you

I hoped time will come when it ceases

Oh Lord! Jesus! Stop the time

Let me run back to catch what is left

Lost my life! somewhere back

Who will mend my heart's cleft!!

I know the blame was mine

I was totally engrossed with things

Couldn't see how fast it happened

Now seems someone chopped my wings

Wish everything goes back

Cant I get a chance to prove things right ?

Am I so bad, that it won't be done

I just wished mine & yours future bright...

It never occured to me

the things were such

as they were supposed to be

Nothing distorted much

But then there was one thing

that was not alright

I am a BAD guy

And people pertained me right!

Yes, I was BAAAD !!!

and still I am

the same guy

I bet and I swan!

I was bad because

For me you were precious

I didn't wanted to lost you

For I was treacherous

I was bad because

I loved you for who you are

But instead, you,

Always thought am a Mar!!

You snatched away from me

the most happiest thing in my life

Alone I stand in midway

Didn't knew alone I have to strife!

I always loved you with my heart

I always thought that we would last

Last all the things that will creep

In our life, with a blast!!

But the blast that had to happen

Had teared me apart

Broken as I stood !

Broken I stand!

Holding blood-poured-out-of my heart!!

I knew it never mattered

though you always cared

and it will even not matter

You always had friendship layered!

Tears come willing to cheeks

But somehow I manage

To hold them rolling to floor

Cuz they're hard enough for damage

Broken hearts doesnt easily mends

Never will the same happen

Though wishing you be mine

Is wishing drop in Deccan

Exaggerating my pain

Never occured to me

Its what I went through

Alone I stand as she left me

Your inhibitions were there

Your permissions were there

But you didn't cared enough

Was it even fair...

Am going back..

I don't have courage to stand

Stand back again everytime..

To fall back again..

You gave me what you could

No grudges are left...ahem...

Thank you for the loveliest days

I hope I'll pass my days with them...

Bye Friends.. AstaLavista !