Regrets...!!!

Today my heart is heavy,
as I bow my head in shame,
I
search for easy answers,
or someone that I can blame.

The salty
teardrops trickle
down my worn and tired face,
symbolic of what my life
has been,
a sad and lonely place.

I close my eyes and
ponder,
will I ever be free,
will I ever learn to love someone,
will
they like the me they see?

How could I not love her;
why was I
afraid?
Why did I condemn her,
for mistakes that others
made?

The tears they seem endless,
my life flashes before my
eyes,
How much longer must I carry,
the weight of this
disguise.

I close my eyes and ponder,
will I ever be
free,
will I ever learn to love someone,
will they like the me they
see?

Will there ever be true happiness
for someone just like
me?