True Love...!!

It was a busy morning, about 8:30, when an elderly
gentleman in his 80’s arrived to have stitches removed
from his thumb.

He said he was in a hurry as he had an appointment at 9:00

I took his vital signs and had him take a seat, knowing it
would be over an hour before someone would be able to
see him.

I saw him looking at his watch, and decided, since I was
not busy with another patient, I would evaluate his wound.

On exam, it was well healed, so I talked to one of the
doctors, got the needed supplies to remove his sutures and
redress his wound.

While taking care of his wound, I asked him if he had
another doctor's appointment this morning, as he was in
such a hurry.

The gentleman told me no, that he needed to go to the
nursing home to eat breakfast with his wife.

I inquired as to her health; he told me that she had been
there for a while and that she was a victim of
Alzheimer’s Disease.

As we talked, I asked if she would be upset if he was a bit
late.

He replied that she no longer knew who he was, that she had
not recognized him in five years now.

I was surprised, and asked him, 'you still go every
morning, even though she doesn’t know who you are?

He smiled as he patted my hand and said, “She doesn't
know me, but I still know who she is”.

I had to hold back tears as he left; I had goose bumps on
my arm, and thought, that is the kind of love I want in my
life!

True love is neither physical, nor romantic. True love is an
acceptance of all that is, has been, will be, and will not
be.

See Me Crying !! Am Dying !!

Somebody help me, Somebody care.

Everything around me has gone to nowhere.

Everything hurts. Oh why is that so?

My minds mental state, I fear it must go.

You seem not to understand, I can not stay.

Tears are what end another hurt filled day.

Every cut, For every lie.

And I'll sit in my room and wait to die.

Remember that I loved you, through out my years.

Someday you might wish to see my tears.

(Though I Won't Be Here)

Things I Like About You !

There are many thing which I like,
each depending on how you make me feel,
that fear it gives you, when you think you're going under,
and you have no clue if you will come out or not,
the increasing of your heart beat, knowing you can't breathe,
you close your eyes so tight, and then in another second,
it moves along and you go up to the surface again, intact.

I like the wisdom behind each of your thoughts,
how you don't only care about yourself,
but also thinking in others as you go.
I like how you trust others when not mutual,
you care for others which do not like you,
breaking the barrier which separates you.
Making my life so lively.

I like how you are responsible with everything,
doing what has to be done perfectly,
always being there when I have needed you.
I like how you have learned care for me,
making it so easy for me to come to you,
as I feel so special inside with your touch.
Sparkling up the universe.

I like how you charm everyone around,
acting so cool and calm around strangers,
being the center of attention, ever so pretty.
I like how you have always made me smile,
cheering me up no matter what happens,
always there for me when I am down.
Being my only purpose.

I like how you have learned to love me,
being ever so tender in your touch,
caressing my skin ever so gently,
kissing me as I have always wished,
making love to me as only you can,
speaking the tone which melts my soul,
being what only you can, yourself.

As I love you and always will,
being ever so grateful for what you have done,
respecting you like you have always have,
joining my soul with you becoming one,
waiting for you on the other side when I go,
sitting there patiently as I wait,
murmuring the name of my love.

WISH YOU WERE HERE WITH ME AGAIN

If I die before I wake,

It's because you take my breath away,

No one else makes me feel this way,

I think of you every second of every day,

Never thought someone this fine could be mine,

And I love every second we spend time,

You make life worth living,

And my time worth giving,

Life is hard when you're gone,

Every second feels so long,

You're a continuous dream,

In darkness you're a light beam,

I love you more than life itself,

More than fame and wealth,

You're beautiful beyond compare,

I love everything about you down to your hair,

I dream of holding you under the moon,

And maybe that can happen soon,

I wish I could hear you whisper in my ear,

And hold you close,

'Cause losing you is my greatest fear,

And every time you speak,

The sound of your voice makes me weak,

I wish you were here,

So I could just hold you near.

DISAPPEARING LOVE

What happened to our love?
It used to be so bright
Loving, laughing, caring
Then soon caught the night

You were my one and only love
Cared for you too much

Then something happened
And slept with that man
You deceived me
I never felt so desperate

But I try to forgive you now
And try not to think about before
I love you so much
It just hurts to ponder now

Everything I have
Is because of you
Everything I bought
Was because of you

I just love you so much
I'm scared to lose you

Things You Wrote For Me on MY HEART... I <3 U

I can't give solutions to all of life's problems, doubts,
or fears. But I can listen to you, and together we will
search for answers.

I can't change your past with all it's heartache and pain,
nor the future with its untold stories.
But I can be there now when you need me to care.

I can't keep your feet from stumbling.
I can only offer my hand that you may grasp it and not fall.

Your joys, triumphs, successes, and happiness are not mine;
Yet I can share in your laughter.

Your decisions in life are not mine to make, nor to judge;
I can only support you, encourage you,
and help you when you ask.

I can't prevent you from falling away from friendship,
from your values, from me.
I can only pray for you, talk to you and wait for you.

I can't give you boundaries which I have determined for you,
But I can give you the room to change, room to grow,
room to be yourself.

I can't keep your heart from breaking and hurting,
But I can cry with you and help you pick up the

I sometimes find I'm drifting
Through this life without effect;
I often wonder if I'm truly
Worth what I've been blessed.

I search through days that have been hard,
To try to understand,
The many trials that I have known,
The life that I have had.

You see me in my daily grind,
So confident and strong;
Yet when I am alone, I question
Just where I belong.

I often try too hard I find,
To analyze and guess,
To scrutinize, investigate
My life I will confess.

For somewhere deeper, there must be
Some meaning to this life,
Some way to make a difference,
Give a reason for this strife.

Is there some hidden meaning?
Some agenda to be found?
A greater purpose waiting
If I care to hang around?

It teases and it taunts me,
Always slightly out of sight;
A hazy vision out of reach,
Where darkness hides the light.

I struggle to bring clarity
To what awaits me there,
And yet this weak illusion
Always fades before my stare.

It seems the harder that I try,
To focus through the haze,
Just serves to add more questions,
Through my endless, tired gaze.

Perhaps I'm trying just too hard,
To understand it all,
For can we ever truly know
Just what we have in store?

Each incident, each moment passed,
Just adds upon the next,
But in the end, will I find truth ...
Or will I be perplexed?

Perhaps I make it harder
Than it has to be sometimes,
But will my searching bring to me
My meaning over time?

Or will it leave me broken,
And confused as I feel now,
While questions bring no solitude,
To this, my wrinkled brow.

Your sweet angelic voice,
continuously rings in my ears.
With you by my side,
there is nothing I fear.

Whenever we are together,
You shine with a heavenly glow.
Your beautiful angel face,
raises me up from feeling low.

Yes, heaven is missing an angel,
because you are here with me.
You're my sweet, beautiful angel,
and I'll love you for eternity!

But suddenly I realised..
It wasn't that was approved
and then all was gone...
With me standing in a groove...


Wasting a lifetime
Trying to find love
Nothing happens
No hope, no girl

Suddenly see her
But sometime before
Can't do anything
Used to be friends, nothing more

Now realized affection
Can go no further
Lost a lifetime
And lost desire

Try to forget
But can't
Try to die
But don't

Mind suddenly gone
No end is near
Nothing to do now
But go on

Go on... ehmm but how
No forward no back down
Looking here and there
And then I suddenly slowed down

I think I love you
Even tho u don't
I think im braiking
With every word ur saying
I think im hurting
More then ull ever kno
I think im faking
Every smile I put on
I think Im falling
As u just walk by
My heart is hoping
On a hopeless cause
And I kno im waiting
But ull never come
I think im hating
NO1 but myself
But I keep on living
To save a life
So wen I sit alone
I shut my eyes and scream
Scream to get rid of this pain
I shut my eyes and dream
Of everything I thought we had
I shut my eyes and bleed
From the inside out
And as I watch the one
The I have always loved
Love some1 else
I feel tha pain
As my heart rips apart
I want to run
But my legs wont work
I want to fly

But I kno I cant even try
The heart of the lovely one
Is the one who feels
What the world can never steel
It hurts inside
But its hiddin so tight
Shoved away
Till the next day
And its hurts so much
To give all that u have
And have it shuved back in ur face
Its smothering me
I can not breath
And all I ever wanted was for u to love me
But did he ever even like me
I would have loved u forever
Till I withered away
I would have stayed by ur side
Untill the day I died
But funny how the world goes
And now u love the one who does
Only think about now
Does she even care
How can u brake my heart
And give me all the reasons to hate u
But I don't
And yet I stand here
Not even a sound
I watch you walk away
With nothing to say